I don’t care about anything. I have never in my life worried about what people think of me. I don’t care if they think what they want. I live like I don’t care about 99 percent of the problems in the world. I don’t know why, but I didn’t give a place to what was happening outside my house until it directly affected myself and my family.
I know very well that it is selfish and bad behavior to be apathetic about anything. I tried so hard to think of people and feel their pain as my own, but I couldn’t. Because I am sick myself, there is a great pain in me that no one knows about.
Even though I don’t understand why I keep repeating my hateful behavior, I’m still on the run to change myself…My name is Mujib I was born in Adama city in 01, my father is a smuggler, I am the first child, my mother left home when I was a 6 month old baby. I don’t know if she live or die, I grew up with my grandmother.
My father married another wife and had 5 children. My father is rich. I do what I want. I wear brands, eat what I want, have fun as I want. But even if I am, I never laugh and playing like other children from my heart. Because my heart is always sad, i always missing my mother, I feel jealous when I look at my father’s own children, because they have a mother, and I wish she was my mothers too, but she hates me so much, she just doesn’t love me.
I thought that because I am my father’s eldest son, I will inherit the wealth, but she doesn’t even want me to go to her house. My grandmother is the only one who loves me in this world.
I’m very good at my studies, because I don’t have friends, my friends are books and my lessons. I am always alone at home when I go to school and when I come back too. Even with my grandmother, I rarely talk to her unless it’s a serious matter. She always comes and advises me in my room, but I don’t care for her advice. she will cry all the time, after all, I always cry every night too. it is not big deal.
This year I am a 12th grade student, I will enter university next year. I don’t have much contact with children at school. Many children want to approach me, but I don’t allow them. Because I think if I approach the boy, he’ll feel like it’s just for the money, like my dad. My father has broken my oath many times. If I call him saying that I needs you, he will come and talk to me without giving me a chance. He says he has deposited money into my account then leave, he thinks that all I want from him is only money.
I think if I approach a woman, she will leave me like my mother in 6 months. My mother was married to my father, she changed her religion, her family is Christian, she became a Muslim and married my father, she left me and my father in 6 months after giving birth to me.
The library is where I spend my free time at school. As the day passed, the week was replaced by a month, and we reached the end of the year. Final Exam time has come, I am very prepared for the exam, Then we finished the exam and said goodbye to the lesson. Well, I have no doubt that my results will be good because my work is only education.
School is closed and it’s winter time , but my life is still the same. I don’t have anything new to do, my grandmother gave me an idea ……………………..to be Continue…….
